Love speaks loudly and is heard.......
......and a selfish heart the same.

.....somehow I think I shall just know...and somehow......this I know

my confession will always be He is a shield about me

How much can one soul bear? My heart faints underneath the strain....
The world is bright as I tremble inside using all my strength to smile...
I look down to the ground and glance up in mirth.....the curtains closed just in time..
.....in time to hide the hurt...

I just bought my ticket today for England. I shall be leaving in a month and gone for five months. I am excited and a little nervous. I have much to do before I go and feel a little daunted by everything. I am so blessed....so cared for. God has taken such great care of me. He has arranged everything. I am not leaving alone. I am going with Him. It is so nice to know that I am not going my own way but following Him. On a larger scale I havn't a clue what God will do but I am excited.

At Mill St. Coffee. Sitting on the couch. Larry sitting across from me reading a magazine. Remembering when I met Larry. Thinking about all the people I have met inside these walls. The people that have impacted my life....the people whose smiles have become so dear.

..........not forgotten, not lost, not forlorn but remembered, pursued and loved.

What can I say? Words escape me.

And tears flow readily as they have been apt to do.

Where am I? Forgotten? Lost? Forlorn?

The ocean is ready to swollow me up

as waves compete to consume me.

How did I cry an ocean? How can the volume of grief be greater

than the vessel that holds my soul?

.......then as I blinked it changed again